I simply can't take it anymore. I feel lost and confused. I'm in the wrong body and there's nothing I can do to change that. I don't feel right. Everything feels so wrong. I want to make the transition as soon as possible. I'm not comfortable being trapped inside this body. I can't sleep because of this. I can't think right because of this. I can't work right. I can't enjoy anything because of this.
I feel as though I've been living a lie my entire life. That I was merely an actor. That I was playing a role.
But it's so hard for me to say this. To come out and yell about this. I feel ashamed. I feel scared. I feel confused. I don't know what to do. I can't do any. I feel helpless.
I look at myself everyday confused. I look at my hands and wonder why they're so large. I look at my chest and wonder why it's so flat. I look at my legs and wonder why there's so much hair.
I look at women everyday and desire to be them. I can't go on feeling this way.
I'm sitting on my bed, crying. I'm up at 12 at night, sweating, crying, shaking.
I really need someone to talk to. Anybody.