Ego Drop D:

#1

In this time of excitement and dread, I’ve a dire confession to make…

I never died. Not once. I gave fifteen hours to the Big Alpha, at least 10 of them as a monster, and as that monster, beloved Goliath (and a few Krakens), I never lost a single round. The trauma of the last few hours, unable to stop playing but bizarrely, perfectionistically obsessed with the idea that I COULD NOT LOSE, COULD NOT DIE, COULD NOT LET MY BROOD GO WITHOUT THEIR FIREY HOT MAMA D:>

And… Now I have to accept that I am going to. I am saying this as a means of ritualistically dropping my infuriating ego. I will die, I will lose rounds, my monster will be hounded to the ends of the earth and shot until he barely carries a drop of blood and blind, furious will alone can no longer animate his heavy, heavy limbs.

I will be sad. I may even feel anger at those puny mosquitoes that stung, and stung, and stung no matter how many I swatted down.

… but that’s okay… because we had our good times. We survived the whole Alpha.

Goliath won’t blame me. I gave him a good ride.

It’s okay… right? Tell me it’s okay to die =(

I present myself for your bullets. Today the monster will die. Get it over with quickly, so I can get back to enjoying this game without this bizarre compulsion holding me back from easy fun ;-;

… Thank you.

(if anyone has any thoughts on similar obsessive traits that manifest when playing games, do share - I’d like to know I’m not the only mad crazy who occasionally CANNOT LOSE and goes into hypactive overdrive, or fixates upon a particular self-defined objective. There were these marines in Halo 2 and I… No, nevermind…)

#2

Rounds will be won and lost.

The statistics will stay indifferent of any side. Thus, I’m pretty much relieved, as I can turn back to calculating my victories.

#3

It isn’t victory, Lagger. It’s survival. It’s refusing to lose, round by round >:l

#4

They will find you, and they will kill you. It’s just a matter of when they will come for you. So far I haven’t lost as monster either, though I’ve only played maybe 4-5 rounds as him. I’ve never been caught before I wanted to be found (which is stage 2 full armor. And I’ve yet to really have my skills tested to the point I feared defeat. (came down to 2 bars as a stage 2, but they were getting creamed so I decided to stick around longer than I should’ve)

#5

Had a similar experience in the Alpha (wasn’t undefeated, but I was strong), and it’s been far more difficult this time. There’s a thread around here that discusses the nerfs since the Alpha, and they’re not that severe, so … yeah, it’s me. Hunters are better at sticking together. I just hope our w/l stats won’t carry over upon release! I want a fresh start on D-day!

#6

Why do people like to run as monster? I for one as soon as the game starts feed on some wildlife, gain a few armor bars and beat the living crap out of the hunters. Go back when armor is gone and do it over and over. All my pub matches I have won stage one as goliath, except a few where the hunters where really good

#7

Oh, you guys are going to learn >.> Good hunters are scary. You feel truly hounded, barely scraping by, using stealth instead of combat over and over. Constantly sniffing, crawling, hiding. Growing. Waiting.

Fun <3

#8

Someone called?

#9

i already live life accepting my mortality and am just waiting for it to happen now.

#10

Hasn’t happened yet. I’ve discovered Wraith, and his Decoy. What I have done to them is… so cruel. HURRY UP AND KILL ME THE TENSION IS RUINING THE FUN. I keep wanting to play hunter so I can’t lose a monster round ;-;

#11

… That is admirable, Zhoyzu. I almost wish I could do the same.

#12

Her. While there is no canon gender for the monsters, wraith is more commonly referred to as female due to her body’s shape

#13

I’ve only played against her once, and our team was literally terrified – her presence changes the air. :fearful:

We put a pretty nice dent in her, though.

#14

@Jakkar, don’t be afraid! You’ll be heading to a better place in the skies of monster’s heaven! a place of peace and harmony, an endless jungle with packs of 6 mammoth birds to feed upon! a place with infinite stamina and unlimited stage transformations! But most importantly, a place where the sheer terror of daisy doesn’t stop you from sneaking until your satisfied!

Accept it in your hearth and you will see the light brother!

#15

You’re right, I usually would - I guess I identify with whatever monster I’m playing and think of it as male. Obviously these creatures have no conventional sex, but I find their humanoid aspects very interesting. They don’t even look like parallel-evolved pseudo-simians - they are obviously human in nature - the pelvis, femur and lower leg transitioning into the tentacle of the wraith are unmistakable.

#16

I’ve never lost more than 15% health as a Wraith - you do not yet know fear, as your opponent was clearly fighting straight, not stealthy D: And I only learned last night that Abduction works from a HUGE range, too! <3

AAAAH MONSTER FUN ;-;

I’ve never played against her, as I primary preference monster… I am worried about doing so :x

#17

I… I… I like eating Daisy :x When I kill her as Wraith, then decoy, and eat her corpse while my double is busy cutting up Maggie.

#18

Is that so? doing such atrocities to Daisy ?! HOW could you?!

Forget heaven, your going to HELL for that.

#19

its really funny when you eat bucket…let that sink in

#20

Love it! I won’t be able to test her until release.